Devotions

Lately, I've been asking myself this question.

If God suddenly returns to take me home, am I ready for Him?

To be honest, my devotions have not been consistent until lately, I decided I should do more. It wasn't that I stopped it, I just do everything else except my devotions. It was wrong, I realized that now. God only wants a little of our time, out of 24 hours, half an hour is sufficient.

Come to think of it, God has blessed me in disguise for these 19 years of my life, but yet at times I've not been grateful for what He has given. I've done so many wrongs, I am definitely proud of it. The bible says God forgives us if we are sincere. That made me realize as well how forgiving my God is.

So God, if you're reading this, thank you so much for all you've done for me and my family.

Final paper, College completed, mission accomplished

The day I registered for this particular college, I hated it. I just think I'd won't fit in. I wasn't good at making friends, I always expect people to come talk to me but I guess there's always gotta be a change somewhere somehow.

I didn't enter college expecting myself to do well, I expected more failures, but that didn't happen. It wasn't a breeze I can tell you, no success comes without hard work.

I made so many good friends in college, a phase I never thought it would happen. I believe it was fate that brought us together. Through all the laughters, tears, joy, worrying for exams, birthday sabotage, lab/ groups work and pranks, I could honestly say I had fun. I don't think I regret anything. 

A situation which I think it was the worse proved me wrong. I've made friends who care about each other, looked out for each other and encourage, pushing each other to do better in their studies.

I'm just a 100m from the starting point of a race that I've yet to finish. My advice is that you have fun and study hard, and never ever give up no matter how bad the situation will be, because at the end of the day, you'll feel satisfied and trust me, it's gonna be worth it.

Chemistry - Third paper for finals

Chemistry is definitely a killer. From studying at 2pm till 12 am, taking a short nap at 12 then waking up and 2. Then waking up at 6, studying all the way till 10:00.

As ridiculous as it sounds, it was worth it. Jumbling up my sleeping cycle was something I knew would happen. Sometimes I feel that the preparation I've made was never enough.

I truly thank God for my helpful friends, guiding me throughout the way and encouraging me. 

Final Biology paper tomorrow, FIGHTING!

Ethics - Second paper of finals

Tired, sleepy and hungry.

Literally having 50 shades of dark circles under my eyes. I can barely open my eyes to even study for Chemistry.

Today's paper was easy, literally copied and pasted everything I've learnt.

I had sushi for lunch but guess all the studying now is gonna make me hungry all over again. I'm actually kinda surprised I still managed to keep 50% of my sanity and the other, flushed down somewhere.

Signing off Zzzz

Physics - First paper of finals

College life was not as easy as I thought it would be. I thought I could breeze through, I've been deceiving myself for some time now.

Sleeping at 12 midnight and waking up at 6 in the morning to study along with my friends, some of them didn't even sleep a wink!

Highly impossible to focus you might say, but I think I work well under stress. I remembered everything and thank God I wasn't even sleepy throughout the duration of finals.  

It's worth it, thinking of the break and results after this. 

Signing off now, gonna study for the second paper right now. And also thank God for really supportive friends and boyfriend. 

The Heirs

It was like a midsummer night's dream, and right now, I'm about to fade away like the dream itself. But I'm glad that I saw you in the dream.

Finals

One word.

Dead.

My finals are in two days and then I'm done with college but heck, I don't think I've cleared whatever I needed to study, I always think I have so much to study and memorize. Needless to say I'm freaking out every second of the day, worse, I might even start laughing at my Chemistry paper.

Crap. 

So this is what it feels like to panic for exams. 

Am I thinking too much?